Monday, September 19, 2011

God goes before

Ten days of seeing this sign....ten days of sleeping in beds, on floors or chairs....ten days of an emotional roller coaster....ten days of God showing himself to me in various ways...ten days of learning new things.  

Why does my learning have to be here, is my question?  Why can't I learn these lessons at home, in my own surroundings? Without watching my dad in his last days/weeks?

Because God knows me better than I know myself.  He created me, He loves me.

Matthew 10:29-31

New King James Version (NKJV)
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a copper coin? And not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. 30 But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.

Friday, September 16, 2011


Yesterday I wrote a post about a nurse here at the hospital, I have since removed it. 


Because she and I are alike:  

She was efficient without compassion, I was honest without compassion.
She had an attitude, I gave it right back to her.  
She needs the love of Jesus and so do I.
We are sisters, twins

For those that read that post you may be wondering how I came to this

My first twinge of guilt came when I read my sister-in-law's comment of how Jesus came to the heal the sick not the well.  I was like: "ouch".

Later, in tears my dad said he needed to apologize to "that" nurse.  He realized that she was only trying to do her job in an efficient manner and he was being difficult.   I wanted to tell him he was nuts, but I just couldn't.  In my spirit, I knew he was right, I was wrong.  I was being a hypocrite....belly-aching about something, yet doing that same thing.
My daddy is still fathering me, showing me what is right, even on his death bed

I'm sure many of you have heard the 'golden rule':  "Do to others as you want them to do to you"  That's a quote from Jesus.  Not "do to others as they have done to you"  as I did.  

This is what I am going to do today...instead of "reporting" said nurse, I am going to seek her out and apologize to her, thank her for her efficiency and explain how her attitude hurt us.  If I can not do this in person, I will write her a note and leave it at the nurse's station.  

It's so easy to say I love God and want to follow Him, but so hard to live it out.  I don't really 'want' to become vulnerable before her, she has hurt me...but this is exactly what God has said I am to do.  

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

When excitement overcomes fear

Remember your first day of school?  Or maybe the beginning of a new job?  How about meeting your boyfriend's family?  Or the time at the amusement park before you get on the roller coaster?  Or ladies, how about labor!

That's where I am today.....Excited yet afraid.....

I am so very excited for my dad.  Very soon he is going to SEE Jesus face to face!  Stop and think about that for a minute.  He has longed for this day for years and years and finally he is on the doorstep just waiting for the door to open...WOW!

This song says it all:

Yet there is fear in my heart today also.  Can I do this?  Can I really say good bye to my daddy?  How can I do that?  I don't think I can....this is just way toooo hard!  

I pray that the excitement will overpower the fear...

will you please pray with me?

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Week At a Glance 17

September 2 - 9

On Sunday my friend asked me  how my schedule for the week looked.  I replied that I had a totally open week....pulled out my pocket calendar and showed her....a totally blank week.  Not one activity, appointment, person vying for my attention ALL WEEK!  

My plan was to have school and just do whatever else around the house that I wanted to....

The beginning of the week I spent ALOT of time working on my one year old project

THE I SPY QUILT I wrote about here

the finished top only

I am having my daughter make a quilt for school this we got started on that.  Want to 'see' the pattern she has chosen and how she is doing?  click here.

To give her a feel for quilting.  We started a practice quilt.  We cut all the strips and sewed ONE block all out of material I had in my stash.  She really caught on quickly. 

Looking at all the cut strips, I decided to make a quilt from the same pattern my daughter is using.  Why not?  The project is already started.  So we became quilting maniacs!  Hours upon hours in the sewing room together sewing away.

This is what I was working on Wednesday evening at 8:45 when a the phone rang:

I never imagined how that ring would change my week!


"Your father has fallen.  He is in a lot of pain.  Your mom is taking him to the hospital"

Project forgotten...quickly dressing, off to the hospital I go.

I arrived minutes after my mom and dad.  As they were trying to maneuver him out of the car, I knew it was bad by all the yelling he was doing.

Pain management was an issue all night.  He is allergic to morphine.  Let me tell you....  Sitting there as my dad is moaning, crying, yelling in pain for hours was heart wrenching.  What I felt was helpless and useless, but I wasn't going to leave his side.

Just as I suspected, the doctor tells us he has broken his hip...oh, GREAT!  I what.

He has to be transported by ambulance to a hospital 100 miles away...wonderful!  At 2:30 in the morning he leaves by ambulance as my mom follows in her car.  I drive home to hopefully get some sleep and figure out when I need to get down to the hospital.  

Sleep does NOT come 4 am, I finally lapse into a fitful sleep dreaming not very pleasant things about my 6 am I can no longer sleep.  My mind/heart is too full....with only 2 hours of sleep in a 24 hour period, my emotions raw, my fearful thoughts swirling in my head this is what I write....the same 'ole story.

He has suffered much in the past 10 years...conjestive heart failure, heart transplant, multiple cancers due to medication needed to keep his 'new' heart safe, a diagnosis of 6 - 12 months to live due to the most recent cancer infiltrating his body and now partial  hip replacement surgery ....

Oh to go back to the beginning of the week when my calendar was empty....I wish it would have stayed empty...I prefer emptiness to this

Friday, September 9, 2011

Body of Evidence DVD review from Timberdoodle

Whenever a newbie homeschooler asks me where to get curriculum I always say:  "You've GOT TO go to Timberdoodle.  This is one of THE BEST one-stop shop for homeschoolers I've seen.  And I've seen a lot over 20 years.
Shopping for curriculum has become overwhelming, there is SO much out there now compared to 20 years ago when I started.  Anyone just starting out can easily get discouraged not knowing where to begin, who to believe or how much to spend.  
Thankfully Timberdoodle knows this and they have put together curriculum packages  with books from various publishers for babies - 10th grade.  (I do believe they are working on 11th and 12th grades also)  They pick the best of the best....and I agree with their choices.  Many are books I have used successfully in our school.
When they decided to have a blogging program, I wanted IN!  I applied, and was thrilled when I was accepted into Because Mom Said blogging program.
One of my first items to review is one DVD in a series of 8 called Body of Evidence Curriculum.  The topics are:
1:  Cells & Tissue
2:  Skeletal System
3:  Integumentary System (Skin)
4:  Cardiovascular System (Heart)
5:  Respiratory System (Lungs)
6:  Digestive System
7:  Urinary System
8:  Hearing Ear & Seeing Eye

This whole set can be purchased for $99.95 or just one for only $14.99. Available separately is a 64-page study guide with over 600 questions your student can use as they view the DVDs for $5.99. 

I was sent #4: Cardiovascular System and the guide.  I find it interesting this topic was sent to me because my dad had a heart transplant 10 years ago.  So this topic is close to my 'heart'  :)

Ok, so what did we think of this? 

My 13 year old daughter said it was a good presentation that was easy to follow.  The study guide questions were answered plainly. 

Not being much into the study of the human body, this is high praise from her ;)

Overall, here are my impressions:

  • Each topic can be purchased separately 
  • Dr. Menton, the instructor, is well-versed in the topics
  • Great props are used to show what is being discussed
  • Dr. Menton's passion for the design of the body is evident
  • Creation based
  • Presentation is easy to follow and understand
  • Any new terminology is explained
  • Guide book questions follow the lecture.  Answers are plainly stated
  • A bit "cheesy" having 2 students in 'class'.  I would prefer it to be a lecture type as if he were talking directly to the ones viewing the DVD.
  • There is mention of previous topics with the assumption that they have been viewed.  Causes some confusion.
This is a series I would highly recommend.  I feel much can be learned from Dr. Menton.  He talks on a very understandable level with ease and interest.

Timberdoodle has many more science programs to chose from.  Click on over to their website to see them all!

*I received a complimentary copy of the DVD as a part of the Timberdoodle's blogging team,  Because Mom Said, for my honest review.

Read what other homeschoolers have to say about other DVD's in this series:

Thursday, September 8, 2011

The same old story.......

......everyone has heard it, some have lived it.  

It goes something like this:

It always starts with illness. 

it racks the warrior's body,
 weakening him.

BUT he fights back,
 with a vengeance because the warrior has seen what illness does, 
many times before.

Each battle wears down the warrior, day in and out.

The bystanders watch, cheering for the warrior. 
 Praying for the demise of illness.

The battles come and go, some fought longer than others...

The bystanders can see the weariness in the warrior's face.

One bystander decides to take the pen to change the story....
She knows a better easier way

But the pen doesn't write for her.  
She doesn't give up and continues to try again and again.  

With no success, she helplessly gives the pen back to the Master Writer, 
begging for Him to have mercy.

His hand forms the word:  

The warrior screams in pain as he falls to the ground...
the bystanders gasp

 Frantically, she reaches for the pen but 
the Master Writer shakes His head

She bows her head knowing He will only write what is perfect, 
what is right 

And she waits........

But she knows the truth

it is always the same

The warrior has fought his last battle

The final hours may be long and last for a while....

But the time will come 


The warrior reaches for the Master Writer's stretched out hand

His battles and pain are over

But for her, the pain continues..
only for a little while

Until the Master Writer
pens her last line

And she joins the warrior 
and the Master Writer


*dedicated to the warrior in my life a man I call  Dad

"here, there, or in the air.....Love you, Dad!"

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Wednesday's Hodgepodge

1. What is one piece of advice you would give a 'just-turning' 21 year old adult?
Be sure God is #1 in your life.  Love God, Love others...everything else falls into place!  Not only for 21 year olds, but everyone!

2. Besides cooler weather (or warmer weather, depending on your hemisphere) what is one thing you are looking forward to this fall?
Definitely NOT cooler way!  The only thing I like about fall is the changing leaves...other than that, I want summer back.

my sleeping companion

3. What sound lulls you to sleep?
Certainly NOT hubby's snoring!  
I sleep with a fan...have to have one wherever I am sleeping

doesn't sound like we are, does it?

4. September is National Preparedness Month...does your family have an emergency 'kit' and/or disaster plan in place?
The only 'plan' we have is meet by the telephone pole if there is a fire ;)

5. How has your blog changed since you started blogging? Or has it?
I added 2 buttons:  Blog and Week at a Glance

6. What's something you've recently learned to do on the computer?

Walk away from it!  Wait...I really haven't learned to do that!

7. Is a picture worth a thousand words? Elaborate.
Only for people with a great imagination, unlike me.  I prefer words WITH the picture, please...or just words!

8. Insert your own random thought here.
I really should be vacuuming instead.....

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Cherished Book Review

Truly a work of fiction....a 'feel good/sappy romance'. 

Sure, there's a couple heavy topics:  abortion, adultery BUT how easily the characters deal with these topics is unrealistic=fiction.

Having said that, I did enjoy it...sometimes it's nice to read 
a happy story where everyone does exactly what they should and all end up happily ever after.  

Fantasy is nice, while living in the real world.  It can take you to a place you will never really experience in this life..

So if you need a bit of a boost, a smile, or a bit of romance....pick up Cherished!

* I received a complimentary copy from Booksneeze in exchange for my honest review.

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Monday, September 5, 2011

Homeschool Mothers Journal 2

In our homeschool this week:

Julie-bug started a quilt project.

Beginner Pattern chosen


Far left will be the border print...the others have been cut into 3" strips.

3" strips sewn together then cut into 3" strips to make the blocks

That's as far as she has gotten.  She has really taken to this which is a surprise to me :)

What is working for us: 
This year we started August 1st with one subject.  We have added a subject each week since then.  This has been a great way to ease back into school without being overwhelmed  By the time we come back from vacation (Sept 26) we will be going full-force!  I highly recommend this way of beginning.