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Friday, September 16, 2011

SHAME

Yesterday I wrote a post about a nurse here at the hospital, I have since removed it. 

WHY?


Because she and I are alike:  


She was efficient without compassion, I was honest without compassion.
She had an attitude, I gave it right back to her.  
She needs the love of Jesus and so do I.
We are sisters, twins


For those that read that post you may be wondering how I came to this


My first twinge of guilt came when I read my sister-in-law's comment of how Jesus came to the heal the sick not the well.  I was like: "ouch".


Later, in tears my dad said he needed to apologize to "that" nurse.  He realized that she was only trying to do her job in an efficient manner and he was being difficult.   I wanted to tell him he was nuts, but I just couldn't.  In my spirit, I knew he was right, I was wrong.  I was being a hypocrite....belly-aching about something, yet doing that same thing.
My daddy is still fathering me, showing me what is right, even on his death bed


I'm sure many of you have heard the 'golden rule':  "Do to others as you want them to do to you"  That's a quote from Jesus.  Not "do to others as they have done to you"  as I did.  


This is what I am going to do today...instead of "reporting" said nurse, I am going to seek her out and apologize to her, thank her for her efficiency and explain how her attitude hurt us.  If I can not do this in person, I will write her a note and leave it at the nurse's station.  


It's so easy to say I love God and want to follow Him, but so hard to live it out.  I don't really 'want' to become vulnerable before her, she has hurt me...but this is exactly what God has said I am to do.  

2 comments:

  1. I know. And I have that problem. And God always, patiently, points me in the right direction. But I always need Him to point me. I am stubborn that way.

    I'm am thinking of you and praying for all every day.

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  2. @EmptyNester
    Thanks so much for the prayers...I am learning so much through all of this. wish I could learn these things in an easier way :/

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